wen All she awaitz foh iz Peace nd Love !!
wen All she awaitz foh iz Peace nd Love !!
and dont know how to,
I start to Cry ! ~ All Inside
when my DearOnes see and not bother
I continue to cry Out ..and they continue to watch :'(
That makes me feel more -d e s e r t e d- !!
- Urz Prathi ♥
wen you See dem wid yur EyeZz..
Coz smeday yu might realise dat Yur Eyez hav. deceived You..
But Yur Heart never Does !!
Walkin' on d warm White sandz ,
gazin at d Shining sky and shellz
Floatin' & swimmin' in d Blue waterLand,
jumpin' al around Hand-in-hand
Thowin' the Green Algae in Scare ,
catchin' the Pink JellyFish with care
Divin' in as the Raindropz Fall,
hearin itz soundz at d Oceanz wall
Standing in d middle of sky-ocean interface,
feelin' d Rain as it touches our Face
Gettin' completely wet , drenched in the Rain,
lettin ourself dry in the sunshine again
The Nature was treating us as itz Friend,
we were juZz lost in itz Perfect blend !!
^^All these were my Real Xperiences of 12hrz of yesterday @Karolina bulgar(a place in Ukraine)beach .. juz written in a Poeticway! I heard the Rain with oceans Ear by taking a dive into it..It was the sound that i never Heard before ..was soundin little scary but surely Amazin & Awsme as it was sensin' musical ♫..The jellyfish were TransparentPink nd very tender that i was even afraid to touch directly,juz holded it in my handz along with the water :) We Played Kabadi,Volleyball,Batminton,runninRace and boys had more Fun than us..We gotto invent some new names for the games they were Playin? :P lol..We were juz watchin dem nd Laughin lyk Hell =] . We were catchin al d attention of Ukrainianz while we were playin Kabadi :) Guess dey found it Intrestin ,Indianz Rock \m/ ;) It was a Beautiful cloudy Day with Rain,Amazin evening Sunset wid a Crescent Moon in d Ni8 <3
Wil soon UL some more pix of our Trip !! ~
cudnt take a better snap of it..as v wer. in d Train ^^
foh all der Lifetym..
Tymz we fought wid our fnz nd siblings
The tymz v Screamed,
Tymz we were afraid to face the dark
The tymz v Cried,
Tymz we behaved crazy for the gifts we want
The tymz v Hated,
Tymz we refused to go to school
The tymz v Cheated,
Tymz we skipped doin our homeworks
The tymz we Laughed,
The tymz we Forgot,
Tymz we slept hearing a bedtym story
It was all Perfect..
But for SomeOne,
Their Childhood makez No memory
nd if it does...dey only remember
Working,working,and working
from the morning sunlight
to the evening twilight
They wakeup wid the Sun
they hold dose Pens
not to go 2 school
but to write those bills
They get Tired
not playin wid Fnz
but working till d day endz
someone to change der lifez
All we do is watch dem
and forget abut it the next day
Busy wid our daytoday livez
We wish to Act nd v fail to
Lets Make that Wish Strong
dan d reason that Stopz
Letz Take that Xtrastep
to look into der eyes nd stop der Pain
And i thank Dr.PratibhaSingh garu who xplained diz as the TBTC (Too-Busy-T0-Care) syndrome in Her article on Childarbour.It was surely an Eyeopener for me,as even I've seen children working as carpenters,cleaners,welders,working in hotels,grocery stores and many Public places at a very young age..but juz used to walkout of the Place thinking i cud do nothing to stop it.
Post this to ur Favourite Websites,blogs nd social nw'ing sites and show that you nolonga suffer from the TBTC syndrome !!Dont skip ,this could be an eyeopener to Someone and indeed change someones Life :)
Eyes drenched In Tears,
Heart stung by beaters
Words chasing me,
Laughs teasing me
Everyone is enjoying the bliss,
while am Alone rotating in d pain axis
I dont wanna see anyone,
or hear or talk to anyone
All they say is that its Nothing,
but i still sense something
i wont let you know am sad,
let me smile and make you mad
May be Now it's your Luck not mine,
But later someday,hardwork does shine
but i still dont regret,
as I've learnt a Lesson that I'll never forget
not juz wen am Happy wid You
but also wen am Angry on You !!
Let this Kiss melt our Hearts
and uncloud all our disputes ~
as it Ceases the tender Pain
and Renders the erotic Love Again !!
Tell meh..tell mee..Tell ME wat I wanna Hear
Make meh..make mee..Make ME ur darling Dear ♥
Hold meh..hold mee..Hold ME little more Closer
Alwayz Together..Lets stay Forever !!
Let meh..let mee..Let ME fly Higher
Call meh..call mee..Call ME ur Girl bubblier ♥
Miss meh..miss mee..Miss ME evry Hour
As made foh Eachother..Lets juz sense d Love Flavour !!
((Inspired 4m JustinBiebers song...
Try if yu cud makeout Wch1)) ;)
It was Only 1 day ..
11/May/2011 !! Yesterday ..
The Nly day wen I felt dat Am gonna Miss "Something" ..
Something dat I had till Yesterday ..
That i mi8 Miss in d Near Future ..!!
May be coz of that Fear..I felt lyk treasurin all dose Moments ..Evrything that made me Sad/ Happy/Freakin crazy/Fuckin Lazy !! Evry moment that i was Xcited !! Nd This is the ri8 TYM i guezz..as i Found myself havin enuff Patience :P
{ My MBBS 1st Year } -- { Trying and Learning }
It started On Sep.1st 2005 !! As we bein Foreighn studentz Guided by the consultancies nd Fnz , were sent to this Place in batches nd I was in d 2nd batch !! Kme here on Nov.7th 2005 !! Our Course had students in 3 batches..1 sent Earlier nd d oder Late!! We had our Jrney 4m Delhi-Odessa ..nd we all were feelin So lonely till v reached diz Place as all Our parents bid us BYE in d Airport !!We were Nly intrested in findin out d Natives of others nd there was only 1 guy 4m AP !! All the others belonged 2 North !
We reached here In 8hrz .Arund 3500Milez .Few of our Seniours came 2 receive us !! I was on Cloud9 when dey cud Recognise me , my name nd My place b4 i introduced Myself !!They were 4m AP too . I was feelin a bit relaxed afta dey discussed everything about the Studies and Place with us in a very Friendly way.
We stepped into the Hostel nd d
1st shock..lol here d hostel rooms were alloted in common for both Girls and Boys.nd d
2nd shock..Damn d rooms were like Hell , My block with 2 rooms 1 for boys nd d other for us with a common WC.mY Room wid a 100watt lamp,2 Springbeds,2 vry small cupboards nd Nothingelse !!I felt lyk Killin d consultancy Ppl who showed us the Pictures of rooms which were Well furnished lyk d 5* onez .
We called our Parents nd were Xcited 2 know dat we reached Here while dey were still on der Way bck 2 home 4m Delhi as dey were gng by Trains !I met the students who came a Month before . I was wid a +ve spirit afta talkin 2 dem as They seemed well adjusted 2 d place. But sad that there were Only few Indian girls ..juz 8 Including me out of 40..nd d rest were Boys. Among dem Only 2 were 4m South (Sara and sumera) nd i cudnt meet dem dat day as dey were out shopping. I was felin a bit LOnely,nd a bit Unique as i was d Only Telugu Girl :)
We relaxed durin d weekend , filledup nd signed our contracts on Monday nd walked into the University ClassRooms.Oh my Goodness ....It was juz Aw...awwwww..........Awesme !! Everyone was satisfied..nd we thought we wud soon be adjusted wid d hostels too as we were allowed 2 buy any Funiture we wish to for our Rooms.
OSMU University ..Toooooo Big , Too many departments ,Wide ,Spacious , Big Pillars nd statues ,2 Canteens(V call dem RedCanteen nd GreenCanteen.. lolZz). It was so colourful wid a mix of Black,white nd Fair people 4m different parts of the World ;) It was completely a New Experience !! We moved into the classes after buying our Aprons (Ahh...1 of my Dream juz got fulfilled) and notebooks. We had arund 3 subjects dat day , we all Tried the whole day to und. d Proffesor's English ..but v endedup juz Laughing at der Funny accent =)) Dat was d Nly fun for us during the 1st week ..Commentin at our Proffesors English,nd Imitatin dem ..as any of us hav. not had any Music /other Fun equipment yet.We soon came 2 know that we have to clear all the classes we missed 4m Sep-Nov. , nd we also Gotto cook by ourselves as we cudnt find anything Indian in our Canteens :(
Our big Problems nd Goals of 1st Year were
Clearin dose Missed classes after attending our Regular classes
Coming bck 2 hostel and cukin for dinner ( I didnt knew even 2 on d Stove )
And Trying to b Comfortable with d Place nd People around
Uff somehow ..by December we cleared our Absents.I managed 2 cuk Rice nd few curries wid my Momz,Fnz, nd Seniours help. By d end of 1st Yr I was neutral nd comfortable wid Evry1 Xcept My Roomie. We also got used 2 the Ukrainian-English ;) I became Very close to 2 of our seniours Rosa Akka and Srikanth Anna. I was feelin Home wen i was with them. :) By July our Academic Yr was Ova nd v were in our Homes for Summer Vocation ..Ahh those 2months were lyk Heaven after such a Miserable Journey in an Unknown Place wid Unknown People :D
{ My MBBS 2nd Year }
to be Continued ..
Yu've shown me what life was all About
Its part of You in my Body and soul
taking the pain to help my evry wound heal
I wonder if there comes a day
when i could hold your arms and say
that you are the One i wish to Bow
coz without you my world would be so hallow
♥ Part of You..is Part of Me ♥
Widout ur role..I cudnt be this better
I only wish , I could show you Mother
How you make me feel like No-other
♥♥ Happy Mothers Day ♥♥
This Poem made this "Mothers Day" so Special foh Me & my Mom :)
I Read it & Translated 2 Telugu foh Her On call!!
She complimented sayin "This Poem would make Any Mother Happy"
She'z so Emotional...She alwayz has Tears wen i Do sch things :)
She said dat she Wanted it in my HandWritten form..Sighned Afta my Name nd she wud make a Frame of it !!
I realised dat "Our Little Love" meanz a lot foh Dem..Love yu MOM >:d<
not coz you gotto GIVE love/smething ,
but bcoz you dont EXPECT love/Nything !!
and When a Girl wants to Hear Him
Day and Night till their last Breath..itz l ̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̲̅] !!
where Even the days seemed Gloomy
but i never raced myself Unhappy
I was Pretending..
I see a beam of Sunshine of another World
and i was feeling and living it
though from miles apart and not In
I was real to this Unreal world
cherishing every little thing
Now that it has turned upside Down
I try Open myself to the Real world
I see,I talk,I Play, all day
It seems So Dark but
I smile,I laugh, I Jump
I keep Pretending..
And As the night Falls
I see the four walls
What i could feel now is only
The upsidedown World..
I want to make it Right
Talk everything Straight
I could Nolonger wear this fakesmile
as am tired of this Plastic Life
Now i could Nolonger Pretend..
but I has No choice
Now What should I Fight for..?
To get used to the Scary Dark??
or wait for The Colorful Sunshine
and Feel the Real Happiness??
It was Aug.13th 1987 !! Arund 3am in the Morning...and i was Born!!I didnt knew or remember the 1st touch of my Mom wen i was in her Lap...nor the Dads when i was in his hands.But my Mom and Dad always say me that it was an Amazing feeling for them As i was the 1st child for them.Later they were blessed with a Baby boy(my little brother Pavan) on Sep 21st 1988.
I cudnt forget that moment when Mom had Tears while she was sharing this experience with me for the 1st time when i was in my school.Even Dad was very happy that moment...he took my hands and said ,"Apdu nuvu bujjiga...ne fingers chala chinna chinnavi Pink colourlo patkunte kandipothav emo anpinchavu ra..kuyy kuyy ani edusthuu bhale muddhuga unnavu" and there was a long pause...I could feel his mixed emotions.I didnt want to see tears in his eyes and i very soon said..."So Dad,now dat am grownup,and as i have this big big fingers,theres no need to be afraid..Nenu em Kandhiponu" and i gave a smile.He Continued...with my hands in his.."Ledhu nanna,meeru entha peddha vallu aina..meku pillalu,manavallu puttina kuda ..Maa kallaki meeru eppudu Chinnapillale"!!I was very happy and everything around me was so blur as my eyes were flooded with tears.I just said 1min Dad ,rushed into the Kitchen wiped my tears and came back with a bottle of water asking him if he wanted too.
Dad said No and continued..my brother was sleeping beside us...With his hand on my brothers hair he started saying.."Ee bujjodu tarvatha 1 yearki puttadu".We both were Smiling seeing his face.I dont remember how i felt when he was born.But i surely remember growing Jealous as My parents Love and care were slowly getting divided between both of us!!
Forgot to mention that my Dad was physically handicapped...his right hand was permanently paralysed because of a Road accident when my Mom was 9months pregnant carrying my brother.She said that she was totally depressed all the period.But after my brother was born they both were again Happy and they were just dreaming about both of our futures and nothing else.My dad was Contractor and he continued working for our Family without givingup and as he was the eldest son of the family he still carried the responsibility!!
My Dad said "Ninu ethukunanu,adinchanu...but veedini sariga ethukoni adinchalekapoyanu,talchukunte badhaga untundhi ra..devudu ee cheyyi inkonni rojulu tarvatha teesukovalsindhi" !! I felt really sad and after that moment i was nomore Jealous about my little brother. I was comfortable with the fact that My Mom Loves my brother a little more than me.The other reason is that am my Dad's baby Doll!!
I always am Proud of having such Parents and Brother!!My MOM..I could never forget those moments when SHE used to coverup my little mistakes to maintain my Dads Impression on me.She used to say that it was her own fault when she had no Other choice.My DAD..he always gave me what i asked for.His Love was always the same!!After my 18'z..my Little Brother was no more a Younger one...he used to take care of me and used to suggest me at a right time.He kept my Mischiefs for himself which he never used to when we were children.I often used to feel him as my Elder Brother :)
They were the Ones who Loved me with all their Heart and always Believed in Me!! I wish to Give them the same Happiness that they have been giving me since I was Born :)
So iz a Gal , She mi8 seem beautiful even wiD her Caterpillar Lukz..
If yu Know Her Heart...❤
I still Hide behind my dad when i fight with my little brother
I still Love those chicks,Lambs and pups
I still lick the chocolate wrapper when noone is watching
I still Cry when my parents dont get me what i Ask
I still prefer to eat those lols and candies
I still accept an icecream even when am angry
I still try imitate the people i love and hate
I still neglect d surroundings when i Play around
I still run allover d garden trying to catch a Butterfly
I still stare at the cutest things i come across
I still love to talk to my toys and dolls
I still shout when i see a small insect or lizard
I still dance stupid when my favourite song plays
I still scribble on the walls and desks when bored
I still showoff the little things i do
I still fall asleep listening to Moms stories
I still break into tears when my dearones move far
I still lock myself alone in my room when am Hurt
I still share my topsecret to a stranger when Happy
I still think that am d best person than anyone
I still act Innocent when i wanna b pampered
I still have my childhood in me <3
Thought it was all abt Giving
but now I see Him Strained of Holdin It"
I Knew i was gettin Addicted
Felt dat as d best part of it"
but now I endup searchin foh itZz Antidote
Still I walkaway wid <3
All I need is Juz a Pill
2 Make my Heart stop Feel It"
The feelings that were never shown
The dreams that were never shared
The moments that were never forgotten
The hopes that were never said
Written with Time as Ink
Soul as Paper, Heart as persona
All lie within Me as
The Book of Hidden secrets
Me mi8 not be the perfect Angel
But U count on Me and i'll on you
cause we know we're Perfect Together
Letz Love eachother Deep
and never let it fall asleep
Want me lyk d starz need d sky
Tied up Forever till Eternity
Just "One Promise" and never forget
To Always Keep me Alive in ur memories
Make Our last wish to watch our names
shine on the same Family Tree