When a boy wants to See Her
and When a Girl wants to Hear Him
Day and Night till their last Breath..itz l ̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̲̅] !!

Walking on the Lonely Roads
where Even the days seemed Gloomy
but i never raced myself Unhappy

I was Pretending..

I see a beam of Sunshine of another World
and i was feeling and living it
though from miles apart and not In

I was real to this Unreal world
cherishing every little thing

Now that it has turned upside Down
I try Open myself to the Real world

I see,I talk,I Play, all day
It seems So Dark but
I smile,I laugh, I Jump

I keep Pretending..

And As the night Falls
I see the four walls

What i could feel now is only
The upsidedown World..

I want to make it Right
Talk everything Straight

I could Nolonger wear this fakesmile
as am tired of this Plastic Life

Now i could Nolonger Pretend..

but I has No choice

Now What should I Fight for..?
To get used to the Scary Dark??
or wait for The Colorful Sunshine
and Feel the Real Happiness??

It was Aug.13th 1987 !! Arund 3am in the Morning...and i was Born!!I didnt knew or remember the 1st touch of my Mom wen i was in her Lap...nor the Dads when i was in his hands.But my Mom and Dad always say me that it was an Amazing feeling for them As i was the 1st child for them.Later they were blessed with a Baby boy(my little brother Pavan) on Sep 21st 1988.

I cudnt forget that moment when Mom had Tears while she was sharing this experience with me for the 1st time when i was in my school.Even Dad was very happy that moment...he took my hands and said ,"Apdu nuvu bujjiga...ne fingers chala chinna chinnavi Pink colourlo patkunte kandipothav emo anpinchavu ra..kuyy kuyy ani edusthuu bhale muddhuga unnavu" and there was a long pause...I could feel his mixed emotions.I didnt want to see tears in his eyes and i very soon said..."So Dad,now dat am grownup,and as i have this big big fingers,theres no need to be afraid..Nenu em Kandhiponu" and i gave a smile.He Continued...with my hands in his.."Ledhu nanna,meeru entha peddha vallu aina..meku pillalu,manavallu puttina kuda ..Maa kallaki meeru eppudu Chinnapillale"!!I was very happy and everything around me was so blur as my eyes were flooded with tears.I just said 1min Dad ,rushed into the Kitchen wiped my tears and came back with a bottle of water asking him if he wanted too.

Dad said No and continued..my brother was sleeping beside us...With his hand on my brothers hair he started saying.."Ee bujjodu tarvatha 1 yearki puttadu".We both were Smiling seeing his face.I dont remember how i felt when he was born.But i surely remember growing Jealous as My parents Love and care were slowly getting divided between both of us!!

Forgot to mention that my Dad was physically handicapped...his right hand was permanently paralysed because of a Road accident when my Mom was 9months pregnant carrying my brother.She said that she was totally depressed all the period.But after my brother was born they both were again Happy and they were just dreaming about both of our futures and nothing else.My dad was Contractor and he continued working for our Family without givingup and as he was the eldest son of the family he still carried the responsibility!!

My Dad said "Ninu ethukunanu,adinchanu...but veedini sariga ethukoni adinchalekapoyanu,talchukunte badhaga untundhi ra..devudu ee cheyyi inkonni rojulu tarvatha teesukovalsindhi" !! I felt really sad and after that moment i was nomore Jealous about my little brother. I was comfortable with the fact that My Mom Loves my brother a little more than me.The other reason is that am my Dad's baby Doll!!

I always am Proud of having such Parents and Brother!!My MOM..I could never forget those moments when SHE used to coverup my little mistakes to maintain my Dads Impression on me.She used to say that it was her own fault when she had no Other choice.My DAD..he always gave me what i asked for.His Love was always the same!!After my 18'z..my Little Brother was no more a Younger one...he used to take care of me and used to suggest me at a right time.He kept my Mischiefs for himself which he never used to when we were children.I often used to feel him as my Elder Brother :)

They were the Ones who Loved me with all their Heart and always Believed in Me!! I wish to Give them the same Happiness that they have been giving me since I was Born :)

Why..?? My Choco Pie.. ?

why do i wanna be the Only Angel
Flying Inside your Heart all day Long

why do i wanna be the Only Devil
Running all over in yur Dreams whole Night

Is it coz of d Compatibility dat Am so possessive??

Why am i afraid to know all about your Past
From the start till the day we 1st met

why am i praying for your future
To see you Happy watever might happen

Is it coz of d Anxiety dat am so Concerned??

why do you cross my mind every single minute
wondering how it would be if you were right beside me

why do you steal my Heartbeat when you smile
rendering my spirits go high dying to reach you

Is this Lust just coz of Your Love & Care or Mine??

Whatever the world might term it as..
I Only have an urge 2 have you all My Life
and be Lost in The Ecstasy of It !!

Tired of the Jrney on d Lonely roads
counting dose little Milestones

Thought i almost reached my Deck
but I see myself bounced Back

Was Imaginin myself the Star
waiting 2 Shine bright even 4m Sofar

But am juz d Fallingstar unbound
neither belonging to d sky nor d Ground

I was Trying to find a Place to Fit
but i see Nowhere to Mark it

"I thought there was Someone
who wud stay and scream along with me
and drownout all my Loneliness"

But am Lockedup Alone wondering
To Where i actually Belong ??

Itz So sTuNnin dat a ButterFly iz beautiful but a CaterPillar Iznt..
So iz a Gal , She mi8 seem beautiful even wiD her Caterpillar Lukz..
If yu Know Her Heart...

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